Anyone who has been here for a while will now I have had a complex history since I had my bypass in 2002. I have ticked far too many boxes in the physical illness section, struggled with mental health issues and cross dependency issues. Looking back its been an interesting journey and I have survived lots and made many good friends. My weight has yo yod and I new since my recent hospital admission that the new pills I am on would increase my already out of control weight. Good friends have been worried but its difficult to mention, and like most here I am a sensitive soul.
The AGM is pressing and I have made a plan to slow down the weight gain or even lose some by then. I am taking a very gradual slow steady approach to this. I have seen other friends struggling with regain, and them making plans, and taking admirable steps.
I have just snook into Tesco under cover of darkness and done "the walk" to the scales at the back. It didnt feel good and I got a bit of a shock.
I have a plan and a programme in place and I face the end of this day nearly feeling positive about food and weight for the first time in a long time. I feel unable to share details about numbers etc yet though if I lose 5 stone by the AGM I may mention it (kidding).
Just vocalising it makes it easier, please dont accuse me of, not practising what I preach, nor obeying what I advocate, the judgemental stuff or scorn doesnt help. I feel a few pound has just dropped of my chest by venting anyway. If I was a finisher I would write a blog or something. Anyway onward and upward.
Anyway one day at a time weighed today 24st 13lbs. I need to face some honest truth about where I am still about ten stone off after nine years. Want to see a shlow down of gain by 4th September and a loss by AGM.
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